TRUE LOVE....
Yesterday, when I was at work, I went to a certain department and happened to walk into the middle of the discussion, which was about true love.
This made me think about my first true love, and believe it or not, I was 24 when it first came to me, or hit me! At that time, I was living in Inverness, in the Highlands of Scotland.
This is not say that I had never had any girlfriends/partners before. I had, and indeed, up until that point, I thought I knew what love was, until I met a particular woman.
Her name was Sharon Doran, and I met her through friends, and although I found her extremely attractive the first time I saw her (which was enough to grab my full attention), it was after the first or second time I had chatted to her, that I found her so encapsulating, enchanting, and addictive. I just could not get enough of her.
From then on, all I ever thought about was her, and we got on so well together that I thought to myself ‘She is my soul mate’.
But, (there is always a But), she did tell me that she already had a boyfriend, who lived in Cardiff, Wales. (I should state at this point she was still living with her parents). She said that she was not sure if she really wanted to be with him, as he wanted her to move to Cardiff to live with him.
This did place a small dark cloud over me, but I did hope that she would tell him no, and stay in Inverness, with me. However, she had already organised a trip to Wales (before I knew her), to visit him and to see if HE and Cardiff were what she really wanted.
Until that day arrived, we basically made the most of our time. We went to see a movie together, Tango & Cash. All I can say is we never really saw much of it….lol…, but know when I see the film now on TV, it always reminds me of her.
When the day arrived for her to leave, She had told me that if she did not return, then it meant she would be staying in Wales, and if she did, well, we would be together.
I never saw her again.
I was so low. Nothing interested me, and it was during this low time, that I realised that I had met true love, I had experienced it, and she was it. If I had broken up with a partner before, I just used to shrug it off. But this time, it was different. The pain and heartache were intense.
In time I picked myself up, but I have never forgotten her, or the brief time we had together, and I never will.
posted by: squirrelzone (reply)
post date: 08.08.08 (8:40 am)
They say it is better to have loved and lost then to never have loved before. It still doesn't take the pain away.
posted by: PastorDave (reply)
post date: 08.08.08 (7:54 pm)
Tango & Cash? Bad movie! You were smart to find other ways to be entertained.
That first love seems to always linger, doesn't it! My first love dropped me, and hard. I ached for quite some time. Recently I had reason to travel back to my home town. Somehow, some way, I was in a department store when her name was called over the intercom! She came walking by, I caught a glimpse of this previously attractive woman as she has "transformed" over the past 25 years. Let me simply and mercifully say that I am so glad that I do not have to awaken every morning to see her on the other side of my bed. So very glad.
posted by: raggedtiger (reply)
post date: 08.09.08 (7:04 am)
Reply to: PastorDave
your experience in the department store is something i have always been afraid of when it comes to sharon. I think I would much rather remember her as she was, as I would not want to be either disappointed or , like you, thankful. Thanks for sharing your little experience
posted by: LadyG (reply)
post date: 08.10.08 (2:39 pm)
True Love is a beautiful thing, and you at least experienced it once if never again.
posted by: raggedtiger (reply)
post date: 08.10.08 (4:08 pm)
Reply to: LadyG
I have never experience anything as strong or as deep since. There has been one other occaision where it was close, but it still did not come anywhere near. After 19 years, i still think of her alot, and i still wish even now, that she had returned. But when I do think of her, although I always smile to myself because of the times I did spend with her, I also still feel the hurt and pain just like it was yesterday. It is something i have never discussed with anyone before, but telling you guys is different, as i guess i dont see you in person day in, day out.
Still, maybe the pain will go....but it is taking a bloody long time!!! But that is true love!!!!
posted by: barnabus1 (reply)
post date: 08.10.08 (9:17 pm)
It would sure simplify life if only they could invent a pain pill for a broken heart!!! It would end mountains of pain for which there is no cure! The next best thing is time... but that's sure not quick relief!!!! Hoping you still find the real love of your life, that will make the old seem like a distant memory!!!
posted by: kanetsugu (reply)
post date: 08.28.08 (5:00 pm)
That's the same with me. But people say that first love is not true love. It came from your eyes and not from your heart. But it's a priceless moment that came only once, and we will remember it and laugh (or cry) for the rest of our life.
posted by: inkspector (reply)
post date: 09.04.08 (8:00 pm)
People come into our lives for a reason -- I think to wake us up and see the world differently -- then they leave and our world is different because of them.